So this blog stuff. It is something I had contemplated starting for a while now. But I am finally getting off my ass to do so. I may rant, rave, and holler but bear with me. I might possibly be worth your time.
I just want to say, I am super excited and anticipating this Christmas season. I know its almost only Halloween. But Christmas is such a wonderful time of year. I can't wait to sit around at night and watch Christmas movies with my friends here at college. But what I can't wait for the most, is going home for Winter Break and spending time with my mommy. She loves Christmas as well. Although, since her mother died years ago, it just has never been the same. So my goal the past few years has been to make it the best for my mom. The sad thing is, at my house, once the presents are open, not even 15 minutes after that, the typical chaos breaks out. Mom becomes flustered and the insults start flying. Towards everyone. And yet, I still cannot wait.
So real quick. This semester. Has been a mind fuck and a half. I have been feeling new emotions towards friends (and I don't mean good ones). When someone cannot be themselves and they need to take things from other people's personalities just because they want to fit in a little bit more, its a bit overwhelming. Okay, you were obnoxious from the start but now you're forcing yourself on us. I may gag. And the work load. It's much more than before and stressing me out. The stress is just a huge negative factor that makes me even more flustered and agitated. I don't like to be angry. I'm pretty chill but my temper is flaring and it scares me.
Well I'm listening to Barry Manilow. Its soothing. I'll think of something else to vent about soon. Until then, Happy Ramblings. :)
